On Wednesday February 7th, 2007 I was walking into work when my phone rang..... I looked down and it was a 651 number......meaning it could be Children's Home......I was it shock and I answered the phone. When it WAS my social worker I just assumed that there was a question or something.....so I continue walking into work and she starts talking about this 'little guy' and I just stopped in the hallway and put my bags down - listening but not really computing anything. When we were ending our conversation I started to walk upstairs and by time I was in my office I was still on the phone and Stacy and another coworker were there.....I just plopped into my chair and was like 'that was the call' or something like that.....I was in shock most of the day so I'm not 100% sure of anything!! Then came that wait......the Ethiopia Team was in a meeting and I would not get the picture and info emailed to me until their meeting was over. I think it was the longest meeting ever!!! At this point I knew he was a five month old baby boy and he was really cute - according to my social worker.....Let's just say that I knew he had a name and I knew his name was long and I knew my social worker had spelled it for me.....but when asked what it was or what it started with I had absolutely no idea - it was a blurr!!! Finally after about 3 hours I got to see his picture and I thought he was that most adorable little boy ever. I could not believe that this very well could be my son...... From there I sent the info to the IAC and waiting what seemed like the longest two days of my life.......then on Friday Feb. 9th, 2007 I accepted my referral and I had a son!!!!!"
That was how I received my referral three years ago - that was how I wrote it three years ago. Today I most definately have my son home!!! When saw Morgan Weldemikael's picture for the first time I was in awe - I was in love - truly I didn't (and don't) think there was a cuter more precious baby boy!!! I didn't know how much I could love this little boy....and how much I love him more and more each and every day. As hard as being a single mom is.....I cannot imagine my life without Morgan - he IS my life -
Three years ago tomorrow it became official - Morgan Weldemikael was to be my son. I would become his second mother and would become part a of his life and first family as much as he was to become part of my family.
I want Morgan's life to be perfect - to be problem free - to be pain free - to be sad free- to be anger free - I worry everyday that there will be pain in my babies life and I HATE it!!! I love him so much it hurts - and i know that's cliche but so true. Morgan I love you more than you know.....I love you to the moon and back AND more!!!!
On a sadder front::
My aunt died today and it has just made me think about so many things, beyond what a wonderful woman she was - but the connections we have with family - the huge feelings that surround loving someone. As sad as I am about her passing I cannot imagine being her children - I just can't! I love you so much Judy - you will be so missed!! I am happy that Morgan got to know her - if even for this short time.
I Love You!!!!
